The day The Phone Calls Ceases

Someone I cared about didn't call me one day.

Even though I was almost mentally prepared for the day the phone calls ceases, I almost broke down crying.

I could see it coming, the same old pattern, yet nothing I did could stop me from feeling heartbroken.

That's when I realized, how horrible it is to suffer the withdrawal of someone's presence. It's the terrible kind of addiction! With drugs and cannabis, you choose to withdraw! But people go away when you need them the most, and with that, crushes a part of you to the point of no return. You have no choice but to accept the withdrawal!

You, at the end of the day, are standing alone.

Why or what made them stop calling, you don't get to know!

And our heart, even when it knows something won't last for long, has the audacity to feel these draining emotions, to make you feel paralyzed. Your fear of being unlovable kicks in, and you'd want to run away.

Even when we know the outcomes of certain things that happen, it doesn't guarantee that we will be okay.

The greatest antidote to pain, as I've learned, is not, not to feel anything anymore, or to shut your heart up.

We simply need to let our heart feel what it needs to feel.

Emotions are for the heart, what thoughts are for the brain.

It doesn't work well enough if we shut it up, neglecting its right to feel, to think.

Then you realize, you'll cry, you'll break down, you'll feel unlovable and drained, no one to share your intricate thoughts with, you'll feel like a homeless person.

But slowly, you'll rise, you'll dance, you'll write beautiful things out of pain, you'll stop waiting for people and for phone calls that never reach you. You'll build a home in the midst of all the pain! The one that can never be taken away!

And then, you'll be free.

You feel, and then you live.

You'll love yourself a little more, a little stronger!

That's what emotions teach you- to pick yourself up from the tear-soaked floor and leave behind fading footprints!